What ones ministry look like?
Is it playing with kids or serving food to the hungry? Preaching? Leading worship? Praying? Is it building or handing out bibles or doing yard work or making videos or taking pictures or making websites?
Maybe it’s cooking for your team or listening to a friend or spending time with God so you can really know the heart of your father.
This is one of the biggest things I am searching out here because honestly part of me feels like I could be more effective (and more excited) to be home with my Young Lifers, hanging out with my best friends and spending time with my own church.
Would I choose to go home now? Certainly not. I am loving being here, even if a lot of my heart is in America. I am learning a ton, making new friends and honestly in the midst of questions and lack of passion for some of the ministry here, I feel like part of me is being restored.
God is a designer.
He is the perfect designer, actually. I was reflecting upon why I came and I remembered I did not initially come with any agenda. I came because my heart changed toward mission trips, traveling and leaving home behind for a while. I came because I felt compelled. Since committing to this trip my passions, expectations and reasons I felt I was supposed to come have shifted. I’m realizing I should have stuck to the basics.
The Lord may have different things for me than I thought He would (or should). I tend to expound too much on the slightest hint from Him-
Oh I am going on a mission trip to Africa? So you want me to be a missionary and live in Africa and live in the slums and preach on the streets? Not necessarily. Maybe. But when I put words in Gods mouth I end up confused.
God ask me to come. I am learning to continue looking to Him for the rest.
God is a designer and has designed this month for me, just like the rest of my amazing life back home. I needed this month away. I need these perspectives. I am growing from these relationships.
I hope I come home with great stories, pictures and a taste of another culture. I surely will, but if it doesn’t look like I wanted, I’m going to be okay with that.
I am so thankful for the supporters who have sent me and the people who are praying for me. God brought me here with a purpose. He is restoring and renewing and breathing life into me here in South Africa (I promise it’s not as glamorous as that statement sounds. Being restored is hard sometimes. Like restoring an old car or something). So it’s worth it.
